So after the big fight with Alex, he just expects me to act all happy like nothing happened. I'm still upset. I don't want to act all loving hugs and kisses after the bullshit he just put me through. I just want to be left alone. I want a good apology.
I hate arguing with Alex. The argument NEVER stays on subject. He always brings other things up and wants specific examples of everything and nit picks on everything I say. It's annoying and extremely frustrating. I can't hold a conversation with him. If I have an issue that I need to speak with him it immediately turns into an argument. He just gets angry very quickly and it gets out of control. I want a man who can hold a decent conversation. A man who'll listen to me and give me advice, not get angry with me and make me feel like shit. I wont someone who'll allow me to vent about my day and not judge me for it. I want to be adored.
Alex is none of those things. He's abusive and condescending and fucking ugly!!!!!!
Wednesday, May 25, 2011
Tuesday, May 24, 2011
Argument
Today, my boyfriend and I had an argument. I don't know what exactly what it was about, we're just pissed off at each other. I'm pissed off at him for sooo many things. He makes dumb decisions constantly. He hasn't had a steady job EVER, so he's constantly struggling to pay his bare essentials. His family fucking sucks. My family hates him. He is doesn't always treat me with respect, he has anger issues and thinks im the root of most of our problems.
I don't cook. I don't enjoy cooking, especially for a man who I don't think deserves to be served by me. I'm a busy person. I work 40 hours a week, I go to school, I drive far to and from work battling traffic and I spend a lot of time at my mom's house. I help my mom w/ her computer and I clean her house on a biweekly basis.
I also don't exactly like cleaning. When I do clean I prefer to be alone. But it eventually gets done.
I just don't think it's going to work between me and Alex. He's fucked up too many times. I'm sick and tired of his bullshit that follows him EVERYWHERE. We are completely different people. He will never get where I'm coming from. He expect me to just forgive and forget what he's done to me.
Fuck him and his stupid neanderthal family. I'm going to move on and become a better person. I don't need his stupid dumb fuck drama and bullshit excuses about how he fucked up yet again.
I'm done.
I don't cook. I don't enjoy cooking, especially for a man who I don't think deserves to be served by me. I'm a busy person. I work 40 hours a week, I go to school, I drive far to and from work battling traffic and I spend a lot of time at my mom's house. I help my mom w/ her computer and I clean her house on a biweekly basis.
I also don't exactly like cleaning. When I do clean I prefer to be alone. But it eventually gets done.
I just don't think it's going to work between me and Alex. He's fucked up too many times. I'm sick and tired of his bullshit that follows him EVERYWHERE. We are completely different people. He will never get where I'm coming from. He expect me to just forgive and forget what he's done to me.
Fuck him and his stupid neanderthal family. I'm going to move on and become a better person. I don't need his stupid dumb fuck drama and bullshit excuses about how he fucked up yet again.
I'm done.
Sunday, May 22, 2011
Random Vent
I don't feel comfortable in my own home. Currently I live in a 2 bedroom, 1 bath w/ my boyfriend, his sister, and one of her sons. Her other son comes on weekends.
I extremely dislike my boyfriend's family. They're twisted world is fucking annoying. Nothing is ever their fault, they complain about everything and everyone and they're very loud. Oh, and they're neanderthals. They are all getting some kind of government assistance also.
My boyfriend's brother was living with us but I kicked him out because he can't seem to pay rent. He was sleeping on the couch for about 3 months because he got kicked out of his home. He can't pay rent because he can't keep a job. He always get fired for 'them not liking him.' He sells his food stamps to pay for whatever he needs. He used to have his own home, a two bedroom one bath in Ontario, Ca,. The government let him live in it for free, some kind of Section 8 deal I think. All he had to do is volunteer ONCE a month. He apparently didn't have enough time for the volunteer work and lost his home. Now he's living from place to place, getting kicked out of all of them for his bad attitude and inability to pay up.
Now that said brother has been kicked out, he still visits and hogs up the TV. He's very loud and annoying in my eyes. He comes over and plays techno very loud and plays video games.
I would like to be notified when my boyfriend's extremely annoying family is coming to visit but that seems to be too much to ask. Now I'm being accused of complaining about everything.
My boyfriend is a loser with a bad temper. I am weak so I stay with him. When I look ahead in my life I see myself free of him, but I don't know how to do it exactly. I've tried numerous times but I seem to beg for him back. It's pathetic I know. Hopefully these blogs will help me sort out my thoughts and give me the strength to dump this insane family I've taken on.
We'll see....
I extremely dislike my boyfriend's family. They're twisted world is fucking annoying. Nothing is ever their fault, they complain about everything and everyone and they're very loud. Oh, and they're neanderthals. They are all getting some kind of government assistance also.
My boyfriend's brother was living with us but I kicked him out because he can't seem to pay rent. He was sleeping on the couch for about 3 months because he got kicked out of his home. He can't pay rent because he can't keep a job. He always get fired for 'them not liking him.' He sells his food stamps to pay for whatever he needs. He used to have his own home, a two bedroom one bath in Ontario, Ca,. The government let him live in it for free, some kind of Section 8 deal I think. All he had to do is volunteer ONCE a month. He apparently didn't have enough time for the volunteer work and lost his home. Now he's living from place to place, getting kicked out of all of them for his bad attitude and inability to pay up.
Now that said brother has been kicked out, he still visits and hogs up the TV. He's very loud and annoying in my eyes. He comes over and plays techno very loud and plays video games.
I would like to be notified when my boyfriend's extremely annoying family is coming to visit but that seems to be too much to ask. Now I'm being accused of complaining about everything.
My boyfriend is a loser with a bad temper. I am weak so I stay with him. When I look ahead in my life I see myself free of him, but I don't know how to do it exactly. I've tried numerous times but I seem to beg for him back. It's pathetic I know. Hopefully these blogs will help me sort out my thoughts and give me the strength to dump this insane family I've taken on.
We'll see....
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